Have you ever read parents’ letters to their sons or daughters that they have posted on social media? Some of the letters are quite beautifully written. Things that I wish I had thought of and said to my sons.
It got me thinking about wanting to do something similar for my son but with a twist. I don’t just want to write about it, I want to have a conversation with him. This past Sunday was my son’s 14th birthday which felt like a great time to have a conversation with him. I am a few days late but I want to tell him how I feel about being his mom and having him as my son. I am using my blog to document my conversation with him but I want to be able to actually talk with him.
Here are the things that I want him to know.
Sunday morning as I was getting ready to start my day, I was thinking to myself how I want to thank God for giving me such a beautiful baby boy 14 years ago. You were so adorably cute with your baby blue eyes. You simply took my breath away when I first laid eyes on you. You were so healthy and happy. You had me at hello. I would forever be changed as a person. That was the day I entered into parenthood.
You were this little person that your dad and I created. Absolutely breathtaking. I know you have heard this story at least 13 times but you were born at 9:37pm on October 30th which was your Aunt’s birthday as well. The best gift I could have given my sister was to have my baby on her birthday.
I wrote in my journal that you were strong and alert from the 1st moment you were born. The pediatrician told us that you had a very strong personality. Not sure how she would know that looking at a baby only a couple hours old but she was right!
You have changed my life for the better. As I look at you today, I see a young man who is responsible, hardworking and sensitive. I believe every parent wants to give their child the best opportunities in their life. When I look at you, you are wiser, more level-headed than I ever was as a teenager. You are so smart and you have such an analytical mind. You think things through, stay calm and make logical decisions. I admire you so much as an individual.
You have such a bright future ahead of you. You truly can become anything you want to be. I don’t think I could be any more proud of you. But I thought that the day you were born and look at me now bursting at the seams on your 14th birthday. You truly impress me on a regular basis.
You are considerate. The other day when your friend left her flute by her locker and you brought it home with you. I thought that was such a nice thing for you to do. And then when you texted me and asked if I would contact her mother and let them know you had it so she wouldn’t worry that she left it behind. I thought that was so kind and considerate of you thinking about what she must be going through thinking she lost it.
You have a sensitivity about you. Don’t ever lose that. Continue to learn to open up and express yourself when someone loves you or even hurts you. I especially love those moments when you talk to me about things that matter to you. That is such a great quality about you.
I often think about what your future will hold. What career you will pursue? What your life will be like 10-15 years from now? Will you be single, in a relationship, married, have kid(s)? But what I truly want for you is simply to be truly happy in what ever career you choose, whatever relationship you are in. To find true happiness in life is challenging for everyone. I am truly excited for all the possibilities that lie ahead for you.
You have a good head on your shoulders and I look forward to sitting back and watching your life unfold. You have made me so happy to be able to call you my son that these words don’t even come close to expressing what my heart feels when I look you in the eye and tell you all these things.
But know you could not make me any more proud to be your mom.
I love you now and always.